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”Nothing hurts the way that emptiness does. Nothing makes you sadder than emptiness does. You have all this pain, and zero drive to stop feeling like shit. I keep telling myself that I’m happier than I was, and I believe myself. However, I’m still not at my prime. I still feel dread when I drag myself out of bed and into the bathroom so I can prepare for the day.
(No.1) I’m better than I was, but I still feel bad. g.p. (via angelbaby37)
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”I didn’t know why I was going to cry, but I knew that if anybody spoke to me or looked at me too closely the tears would fly out of my eyes and the sobs would fly out of the throat and I’d cry for a week.
Sylvia Plath,The Bell Jar (via unstabile)
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”For a long time I wasn’t
entirely sure I wanted to
put myself back together,
because letting go of the
sadness would mean I
had to redefine myself.
And sometimes, I still feel
like chasing the darkness,
because I don’t exactly
know who I am without
it. I realised I made a
home out of something I
should have never let in.wtm, chasing the darkness (via wordscanbeenough)
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”That’s the problem with putting others first; you’ve taught them you come second.
read that again. (via )
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”
My brother killed himself
on the twenty-eighth Thursday of last year
and I missed four days of work
and my mom wanted to know ‘Why’.
My brother
he was always a fan of beauty
but what he did
was not beautiful at all.And last week I got the news
that one of my good friends from high school
had overdosed
(again)
except this time
she’d gone too far
and now she was gone.
And I had a hard time falling asleep at night
and her mother
hugged me tight
and thanked me for coming to the service
but I did not
want to be there at all.
This is not
beautiful.The girl down the street
would’ve turned 21 last year
and I can scarcely imagine
the wild times she would’ve
(should’ve)
had.
But she is buried six feet deep
after falling nearly 300
and she did not leave a note.
This is not
beautiful.My freshman year of college
and my roommate was beautiful
and how I wanted to be just like her.
But she wore herself down
till she was
almost invisible
and if you blinked
you had to go and find her all over again.
So now her parents are no longer supporting her college tuition
but are paying her hospital bills
watching their daughter crumble.
This is not
beautiful.So y’all can take your narcissistic
romanticizing
and glamorizing
of self harm and eating disorders and committing suicide
and shove them as far up your ass
as you possibly can.
Starvation is not beautiful.
Killing yourself is not beautiful.
Sadness
is not beautiful.
This note I am writing
is not beautiful.But you
you are beautiful
and it’s about damn time you start believing it.(via runiqu)
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I guess I’m completely worthless to you too. Guess I should be used to it by now. I’m not needed...
- “The other day, someone asked me how old I was when I moved out of my parents house and I told them...”
Once you start dating...
I’m so tired of doing nothing but crying